[quote name='JStryke']I'm aware my priorities and such are out of whack. But for me, I dunno. Yes, I don't like my job (well, the carts aspect of it), but it's more than that.
For whatever reason, I always end up comparing myself to other people. My sister (who is three years younger than me) has a higher paying job working for citi (I think she gets paid $10 maybe $11 an hour, not sure). The highest I was ever paid for any job was when I worked an assembly line for a month and make $9 (never doing that line of work again, dear god it sucks). Otherwise, my highest had been making $8 an hour. And it seems like she can get jobs with little to no effort. Me, I could be unemployed for a year and still get the shit end of the stick.
Then I was talking with Josh the other day (dad's friend's oldest son). Ok, I understand he should make decent money having gone to college, but we talked briefly yesterday and it sounds like he doesn't even have to apply. He got 4 job offers recently from the employers contacting him.
Then Derek (dad's friend's youngest son) is apparently doing some work under the table for some business that just started. He's 16 and is already making decent money it sounds like.
I'm aware it sounds like I'm complaining, but it always feels like I get the shit stick in life. Work sucks, school sucked for me, just...there's times I just want to give up on life.[/QUOTE]
This is why people should never discuss their pay rate with others. And in reality, you shouldn't care what they make. Big deal. All my friends make more than me. Do I care? No. What good does it to me to dwell on this? You should just worry about you. And try to find something to be happy about, like when you are doing carts, is the weather nice? If it is not then trying thinking that things could be worse. If you alter your outlook on life just a little bit, you'll realize things are not that bad.